Dear flist,

I need you all to know that I think you're amazing. I'm talking talented, funny, charming, and inspiring. So much so that I'm constantly extremely intimidated, despite the fact that you're all such friendly and open-minded people! I've been such a quiet, mousy person these days, or rather, these past couple of years, and it's getting annoying and I want to change that. It's strange to write that because it's feels like: I'm not saying anything at all; I'm finally saying something that's entirely me; this is all the same vague and nondescript stuff as before.

Back to the point, I just want to say, thank you for being you.

(This has been strange, I know.)

So many plans and projects in the works– excitement abound!

(This is just a public note to self to make sure that shit actually gets done. Ya know, by not mentioning specifics.)

I have no idea how I feel about it. It kinda felt... light?

I do not know.

What about you?

Say what you will, both were iconic. And MJ– seeing all the footage and listening to people talk about him, it's so evident how much he really loved his work and his fans.

I'm still incredibly shocked.

I've said it before - Lydia makes music the way I want it and need it to sound. Saw them play at Bottom of the Hill again this Friday and yeah, they were amazing. No pictures, 'cause I just wanted to bask in the moment, enjoy the show, 'cause I'm totally one of those people who completely gets into the music and bops and nods and shakes my head as I mouth/sing along. I'm only 5'4", so I make no apologies for view blocking, 'cause I can't cause it! Highlights:

- They played Stay Awake live, full band. Cannot deny that it was expected, it is called the Stay Awake tour after all. It was intense and lovely.
- They gave a choice for the first song of the encore, It's In Your Blood or December. So incredibly happy they chose the latter– the song is epic is what it is.
- When someone requested "All I See" during the encore, Leighton: "Mindy frowned at you when you said that." !

Brave Citizens, Eye Alaska, and PlayRadioPlay! were the support– ambient/alternative/indie/rock, funk-soul-laid-back/rock (yes), and mad inventive electro-but-not-dance-rock.

Hospital - "I never got to see you once more, no. I guess it's all I wanted. I guess that's all I need." Not my video but from that night.